You are the reason why I smile

Oh yes, you are one of the biggest reasons of my smile. Your presence around me has brought a sense of peace in my life. I am grateful that despite my shortcomings you have accepted me the way I am…you have accepted me with my tantrums, you respect my opinions, you are always there for me and above all you trust me. I cannot stand the thought of losing you, you are such an integral part of my life. My life will be incomplete without you.

Each one of us are lucky to have such people in our lives. From parents, to siblings, to close friends, to life partner. They are the people who stand by you even if the world is against you. It is amazing to spend your life around those people. But sometimes we get so much involved with ourselves, that we forget our responsibility towards them and regret it later on.

I guess somewhere we as a generation are too materialistic. We are too much in love with gadgets, facebook account and ourselves, that we are ignoring the real world and people around us. In the effort to make our present better, we are not thinking about future. I guess for some people the smile for a given moment is directly proportional to the number of likes on the status related to it on facebook.

I am thankful that the people who bring a smile to my face are sane and they do have time for me and are not lost in virtual fake world. 

You just keep trying...

There are times in life when everything around you seems to be useless...you feel why am I even here....I dont belong here...I havent done anything so bad to deserve this....you keep thinking about all this...you try to find an answer to these questions....but you never succeed...you just keep trying...

There are times in life when you feel that you are taking steps backwards.... You are trying your level best not to do that but there seems to be a force which is pulling you back and you are helpless about it....you just keep trying...

There are times when you feel alone despite having people around you...the only person you find solace with is yourself...people around you keep on saying something or the other which for you is just utter nonsense...you just want to talk to or listen to is one person....yourself but you are not able to...you just keep trying...

There are times when you so desperately want to have a good night sleep...but everytime you close your eyes, you see a nightmare...no matter how hard you try you are not able to sleep..you dont know what to do...you just kep trying...

You just keep trying and keep up the belief that there is always a silver lining.....

And the bells rang again

After almost more than a year, I got a call from him again last month (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2011/04/short-real-story.html) when I was in Delhi , as always from an unknown number. He just said that he wanted to meet me asap and told me that he will pick me up in next 20 minutes. I saw the watch and it was 11:30 pm. I was damn tired but could not resist a chance to meet him.

Over the last 4 years I met (around 4-5 times), every time I saw a different guy in him. But this time, I felt the same spark in his eyes which was their in 2008-09. He was sounding really positive. Before he said something, I told him “dude seems you have a gf”. He blushed.

From here on the conversation is different with what guys have and what girls. Girls go into deep dive and take all the details about the guy, his family etc etc. Guys generally just ask one question “Is she the one or you still in look out”? :D I did not need to ask this question because I knew he is not that kind of guy to go for a random relationship.

So I reminded him about the conversation we had last year and asked him is it the same feeling he had few years back (http://unknownrahul.blogspot.in/2012/02/clueless-he-or-me.html). I wanted to know that did he feel the violins playing, bell ringing – something he always believed in and was laughed at by many. He started by saying that precisely to tell me about this he wanted to meet me. He continued by saying that yes he heard them. But this time it was little different. This time he felt more of peace and a sense of assurance. So for next one hour , I just listened to him about how happy he is now that his decision to wait for the right person proved correct. He thanked me for telling him last year that he was in a romantically insulated stage and he needed to make an effort to get out of it. My respect for him doubled when he refused to compare his gf with his ex and said that its not right to compare. He finished off by saying that “Respect and learn from the past and present to have a better future”.

Wowww… its always been good to have a conversation with him. Wish we both had time to meet more often. It was good to be proved wrong.

When we were about to get up from our seats, suddenly I heard bells ringing. I thought it was an indication from god to me that she is somewhere there – but then I found out it was a customer who rang the bells of Pizza Hut where we were sitting. :D